Laughing

I laughed today. I didn't realize that I haven't laughed in a long time, until I found myself laughing today.

Day 6, and so far this week, I've cried twice...but it's just been tears, not sobbing, and I laughed twice. Well, a little yesterday, and a bunch tonight.

It may have been the company, too. I was out with my SIL yesterday, and my niece tonight. Both are fun people.

I'm feeling much better with the meds now. I do still feel nauseous, but only once I have an empty stomach. I don't eat a lot while on the meds, so that's a bit of a problem. Well, it's a good thing, but a problem because if I don't eat, I'm empty, thus the nausea.

I still feel a little woo-ooo-y, but not as bad as in the beginning. I think it comes in waves now. I can tell when it starts to wear off, and then BAM! it hits me again.

I realized something else, too. The days are SO much longer. I guess because I don't spend all day in a panic about what needs to be done, and worrying if I can get it done or not. I also realized that, before my tests, I don't panic and worry about whether I'll pass or not. I used to go crazy worrying about the grade, if I studied enough, if I'd fail, etc. Now, I just went in, took the test, and didn't think about it. It was kinda nice to not be totally stressed about it.

I'm giving the kids this and next week off from home school, because I want to concentrate on my finals next week. I'm not even really worried about them. There's a lot to study, but I'm sure I'll have enough time and I mostly understand everything, so...

I feel really good so far. I hope that the meds can stay working for me, and that I can continue feeling better, and that when I do level out, it's not as bad as it was before.